Friday, February 20, 2015

This Scary Thing Called Life



It had been brought to my attention that my life is half over. 


That's a really scary way to start a post, but seriously I'm going to be fifteen in April and I've realized that I've done nothing in my life! I feel so pathetic, I don't where the time went I was just eight the other day and now I can legally get my driving permit, so that's why I've deiced that this year is going to be awesome! I'm going to get as much as I can crossed off of my bucket list.


 P.S I know I promised daily post and I'm super sorry but this week has been crazy busy and I've been tweaking the schedule so I promise starting Monday there'll be a post everyday no matter what! 

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Sunday, February 15, 2015

A Snippit Of My Story

I was thinking of doing something a bit different and decided to let you guys read my short story I've been working on, it's called " Do You Hear The Voices." Enjoy! I'm also thinking of making it into a novel, let me know what you think.

I walked into the front hallway, shutting the door and tossed my backpack carelessly. “I’m home!” my words echoed off the walls. I sighed walking into the kitchen, the setting sun cast shadows on the pale blue wall. 
Aunt May must still be in bed. I thought to myself,

I started dinner, frozen pizza and sat down on the wooden kitchen chair to figure out my math homework. Slow footsteps echoed down the stairwell.  Aunt May, dressed in a pink bathrobe that she never seemed to change out of grabbed a Coke out of the fridge and drank it. She faced the window, her face ashen with dark circles and her dark brown hair in a uncombed mess starting out as if deep in thought.
 “Hey Aunt May.” I managed a weak smile. 
  She didn’t look at me. Finally her voice came out in barely a whisper.
 “Dinner?”
 “I’ve got it in the oven.” 
She nodded and shuffled back towards the steps climbed back up and disappeared into her bedroom. I sighed and tried to focus on math but the problems no longer made sense. If only life was as simple as math, only one answer to all questions. I tapped my pen thinking of Aunt May. Awhile back when the symptoms started to occur we made weekly doctor visits and the doctors labeled her medically depressed, gave her some pills and tried their best but nothing helped. 
She shut down when mom died, the last living relative of hers besides me, that she knew of and so she began spiraling into this pit of blanked stares, She never left  the house except to get the newspaper in the driveway and even that was a hassle. So I got a waitressing job at the local diner and I’m sure the only reason they hired me was out of pity given that we live in a small town and in small towns news travels fast. 
I heard the shuffling of footsteps and looked to find Aunt May, possibly wandering again but only found the empty hallway. “That’s strange.” I thought to myself.  Lately I’ve been hearing things, simple things like footsteps when there’s no one's there or what sounds like words only for it to turn out to be the wind. It’s only the house settling I would tell myself or stress causing me to overthink.
 I pushed it out of my mind and returned to the piece of pizza in clutched my hands, gone cold I gave up on eating and watched stupid reality TV shows before trudging upstairs and going to bed. Staring at the ceiling I finally drifted off to sleep. 
“Lilly.”
 Fog twirled around my ankles as I stood in the woods, trees stretched their gnarly branches as if to stop me from escaping. I faced the voice. A little girl stared at me. Her eyes were so dark they looked black, were glassy and her skin was ghostly pale. I walked towards her even though I tried to turn away. Her face twisted into a grim smile, her teeth craved to a point and decayed. 
“Come here.” Her voice was high like the sound of bells but with a coldness to it.
 I tried to move, run, turn away but it was like I was being pulled towards her. I finally stopped when I was hardly five inches away from her face. I could smell her disgusting breath, like rotting meat. As she spoke the words curled in the air like poison 
“Do you hear the voices?” 
I woke up hyperventilating and found Aunt May standing outside the bedroom door staring at me. Her mouth opened as she slowly spoke, but I could hear the words I had been hearing so many times before. 
“Do you hear the voices?” 
She turned and walked almost like in a daze, away. I followed her and found her in her bedroom, asleep like she never had moved. I was weirded out by now and turned back to go to my bedroom when a shadow darted in front of me. Fear shot through my veins as it took shape turning into a little girl, the same girl that had plagued my nightmares. I turned to run or hide anything but face her empty eyes but just like in my nightmares I couldn’t move
 “Follow me.” she spoke softly but it was a command.
 We walked out of the house and into the woods surrounding the house 
“Let me go!” I couldn't keep the fear out my voice as the trees grew denser, I tried to cry out in protest but no sound escaped. We finally stopped in front of a cluster of rocks, I looked at the girl 
“I don’t understand.” 
She pointed at the rocks. “Look closer.”
 I peered at the rocks and found they were headstones. Suddenly more shadows appeared chanting, I gripped the headstone trying to figure out what they were saying and realized they were repeating “Do you hear the voices?”  I covered my ears.
 “I don’t know what the voices are!” I managed to choke out the words.
 They moved in closer, the chanting becoming more menacing. “Do you hear the voices?” I crouched closer to the gravestones and read them. My name was carved in large gagged letters. 
 “Lilly Niart.” and the one next to it was “May Niart.” 
I starred in horror at the little girl. “What are the voices?” 
Her face twisted into that smile.
 “Us.” 
The last thing I saw was her twisted smile as she pushed me into the grave. 

Saturday, February 14, 2015

All The Planned Posts

I just wanted you all to know this weekend is going to be loaded with posts! Here's a short list to let you know! 
1: Beautiful People Writing!
2: Music!
3: A Chapter Of My Novel! 

Valentines Day Blah

Dooms day is upon us, and by that I mean Valentines Day. 

DUM DUM DUM! I know many of you enjoy Valentines Day but I've never really been a big fan of it.  I mean it's basically just a holiday that big corporations make money from and husbands who screw up the other 364 days of the year try to redeem themselves with a box of chocolates. 

Stand up my comrades and defeat this incredibly stupid holiday by instead of showing your love for others one day of the year do it everyday! Smile! Give a compliment! Buy flowers anytime! Plus human emotions annoy me. I don't know why I was just born this way. 



Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Feminism

I would like to apologise to anyone who takes a offense to this post but get over yourself. I've been thinking a lot of Feminism lately after I was reading about a article about it and when I finished reading it all that crossed my mind was "What a bunch of crap." I mean COME on, you don't have to hate men to be a Feminist that's why many people don't exactly cheer when you tell them you're a Feminist. The roles for being a femist are simple. 1: Believe in equal rights for both genders. That's it. Don't start protesting outside a gym or burn your bras in order for equal pay instead both genders need to do equal work in order to be payed the same amount. I don't get why some women think just because their a female that automatically means they get shortcuts in life.

The Secrets Of Living Well

I'm sure we all know the same "Oh you need to eat healthy to be strong!" Speech before in life but let's face it, eating right and drinking water makes you feel better it's a fact! One of my New Years resolutions was to eat healthier and cut as much red meat as possible and even though I've had my off days I do feel better. If you think it's the right choice and you want to do it go ahead. FYI if you start depriving yourself of food, any at ALL then you need to talk to someone. Just remember that one slice of cake isn't going to hurt you.

Saturday, February 7, 2015

Concerts This Year

I'm guessing you all know my love of music so I thought I would tell you about the awesome bands and musicians coming to St.Louis this year!
Foo Fighters.
Probably the one I'm most excited for is Foo Fighters! Dave Grohl's the lead signer and their one of the only rock bands still playing in this age. This'll be my first time seeing them and I can't wait!Train with The Fray.Trains also great because their more of a upbeat rock band popularly known by their song "Hey Soul Sister" but their coming July 11th and I'm excited to hear them  for the first time!Fall Out Boy If you haven't listened to Fall Out Boy then you must be living under a rock since their song "Centuries" been playing on the radio all the time! To those who think their still living in the decade of the emos I'm sadly telling you no they've moved onto a bit of a pop rock genre but this'll be my second time seeing tgem and the last time I saw them was last year at the Paramore tour and it was so hyper and amazing!And finally Dave Matthews Band.I love Dave Matthews, I'm not quite sure why but I do. Anyway their a rock band and their a bit different from other bands because their known for playing their songs differently each time and this'll be my first time seeing them.

Just A Note

I know I promised you all regular posts though out the week but this weeks been crazy busy so I'll be posting Saturdays post today and then weekly posts next week.